Righto so I've figured out today with the help of you all, commentors, emailerers even txters, that this blog is just totally reflecting my real world life right now.
I'm in a transitional phase that I can't really do anything about but ride it out and wait till whatever happens next I suppose.
It hit me while I was chatting away to Gooseman as he worked from home today.
He sat at the kitchen table with his laptop while I washed dishes and told him I was fully OK if he ever gets transferred in his job to another city or something like that. He looked at me with those "Far out what sort of nut bag am I actually married to? eyes" while I babbled on....
Then I just blurted it out "I'm BORED!"
So he told me to take the dog I wanted so madly for a walk.
But no, I wasn't actually bored in that moment at all, or any days for that matter. I love my free time while the kids are at school and I even love working 2 or 3 days a week.
I had to refine my statement.
You see I can't see anything in the near future that builds excitement..
We've done all the big things like getting engaged and married, had all the babies we want and can handle, brought a house, got a dog and too many cats, you know, all that interesting stuff that makes life EXCITING and new and stressful.
Gooseman is happy in this phase, he says it's a time to sit back relax and enjoy as things become slightly easier with the kids (pfft) and maybe a little more financially.
But I really am an ants in my pants person.
And then I thought of the title of this blog
that I had been again considering changing, because I'm not in the same phase I was when I started this, finding joy in the mundaneness of toddler food and playground visits.
I'm antsy in this new phase and STILL need to find that joy within this new mundaneness that inevitably occurs. It'll always be there realistically. Even if I grow my children up and land the career of my ultimate dreams, I'm still going to have to wash Goosemans socks, hang them out to dry and leave them on the couch washing pile for him to fish through every-other day.
So the blog for now stays.
The title definitely has to stay until I master the art..if ever.
lets hope so!
As for your wonderful encouraging comments and suggestions of starting a photography blog, I don't think I'm quite ready for that yet.
Also I found my passion for writing on this space so it would feel a bit like cheating on my first love.
I love the process of placing a random picture I have taken and making it fit perfectly to my words (well that makes perfect sense to me anyway) it's THIS that gives me some of my biggest satisfaction on here.
So Thank you fabulous bloggy pals
p.s I wasn't calling any of your blogs boring. When I was writing last nights post I was actually thinking of a lot of overseas blogs that I LOVED when first starting out almost 3 years ago that have stopped or gone totally commercial or stick to such a strict blogging "routine" you get no glimpse of anything personal any more. Just a generalisation really.
Love you ALL and you ALL know who you are
XO
9 comments:
I'm really trying not to laugh here. Have you heard of a hurricane? Yes remember that thing in the middle? The quiet patch?? Yeah that, I'm putting money on the fact you not coasting down the tail of the roller coaster, just the lull before the next bit!!! Tehe, have you heard of teenagers???????????? Lol, I love you Widge you just so funny!!!!!!!!!!
Much prefer your blog to some of the overseas blogs I've read too! Perhaps because they're closer to my own journey.
God bless Widge.
I know I'm a bit late to the party...but I love your blog Widge and I'd be sad not to hear of your hilarious adventures (I still recall the puppy poo one vividly) and insights into your cool mind. We all change over time and I quite like seeing the journey that people go on through their blogs as they grow, it's refreshing and encouraging to see it morph or blossom into something else. I'll still be reading regardless :-)
Yeah I know I am loved! Love you right back!
Read your last post late last night and didn't get to comment - but really feel that this stage is just the awkward transition phase before awesomeness. Transition is weird - but hang in there, and I was going to suggest just having a break rather than deleting your blog... cause girl, we love it and it would be too sad if Widge disappeared from blogland!!!
Awesome.
Phew.
So glad you'll be sticking around and what you are is just "antsy".
I was thinking of your writing as well, because its your off-beat writing style COMBINES with your funky images that really make me smile every time.
What you write is never boring.
So I think starting a whole new blog about photography wouldn't be you at all... but what I meant was maybe when you run out of words, you can fall back on experimenting with your images. Oh and your ART is amazing. I stand in awe.
And i totally want a CHCH blog visit this year; Gail is taking her sweet time returning to NZ, so maybe it will be just me and Lyns. Whatdya reckon Lynsey???
you are so smart!!!!
i like you♥
love and light
ps WV DOGIT
Even in the midst of what may be my adventure I find time to still be bored. I am having to learn to see what I am meant to be right now in this moment and not look for the big flash happenings some where over there. Glad you are staying :) xx
wow Widge, your last few posts I can relate to so much!! (I like all your posts, but these ones at the moment speak volumes to me!)
I am feeling so similar... all my babies at school, nothing big to look forward too and I have learned I am always looking out for the next exciting thing - even if its just a holiday (would be nice).
Keep writing, you are saying the stuff I feel but can't put into words like you can.... so I just stop blogging altogether...
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